Life in the Right Lane
I recently went deep sea fishing off the Sea of Cortez with my friend Wendy. My husband and I were traveling with two other couples and I was the only one who did not get seasick, so off we went to catch the “Marlin.”
The catch, (no pun intended) is neither of us are “fisherwomen.” I was nervous, fearful of failure, fearful of looking like an idiot, of not doing well. Challenges I have struggled with my entire life and have held me back from experiencing some amazing things.
I crave to hear the words “well done my good and faithful servant” and quite honestly for people to like me. I want to hear when I enter heaven’s gates that I knocked it out of the park when honestly I am one of the most uncoordinated people on this earth (not exaggerating) who could not even come close to hitting a home run. I play daily the dangerous game of comparison.
Yet I know I was created for a purpose. I am loved by God and I must obey His commands to love Him and love people, but yet my insecurities continue to get in the way.
This past year I turned 50, which I have to admit was a bit surreal. My brain is questioning “Who is the essential self I want to be? What does she look like? What makes my heart beat fast?” I have been praying for God to reveal those things to me. Nichole Nordeman said it beautifully at a conference I recently attended, “Creator. Architect of my heart. Shaper of my soul. Author of my story.” That is who God is, I must make room to hear Him. He knows what my essential self looks like. He knows what makes my heart beat with passion. I need only to be still and humbly ask Him to reveal those truths to me.
My prayer is that I find my lane, sometimes I feel like I am on the right path but going the WRONG direction. When you find the right lane, grace is found there. I pray that God will continue to mold and shape me and chip away everything that does not direct me to Him. I pray that I may be still and obedient to His call. I pray that my soul will be saturated by His words. I pray that my heart will be broken for the injustices of this world and that I will do a mighty work for His kingdom.
My prayer is that if you are reading this you too will find your lane, your purpose. God has a great adventure planned for each and every one of us, but it only happens when we say “Yes” to making Jesus the focus of our life. I invite you to consider the incredible potential that waits outside of your comfort zone and highly recommend John Ortberg’s book “If you want to walk on water you’ve got to get out of the boat.” John Ortberg is one of my all-time favorite authors. His humor coupled with honest and practical Christian growth is challenging and invigorating all at the same time.
With all the questions rambling through my brain this thing I do know. God has a purpose and plan for my life and I am only one step away from a great adventure. Who knows, maybe some part of the plan for me is to catch the “Marlin.” ;-)